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Could things get any worse?? That's the exact thing that I've been asking myself for the last few days, I mean good god, this is just ridiculous.

First, my favorite teacher from Middle School died from Brain Cancer, so I cried my eyes out when I heard from an old friend. Not only that, but my Uncle moved out of the house that I'm living in, yes, he was living with us. (Us referring to myself and my little puppy Steeler.) And he took the dog, its for the best though, he's going to a nice big family, my Uncles moving there because of his new job, Materials Manger for FedEx. So little Steeler, yes Pittsburgh Steelers if you want to get football about, is gone, and I'm all alone.

Then I just heard this devastating news about one of my friends committing suicide . . . SUICIDE!!!

She was such a beautiful girl, and she had the most amazing boyfriend, but apparently somethings been not quite so right with her head, and now that poor beautiful soul of hers is gone, just gone.

I'm completely depressed, and with an under lying sense of anger, that's why I needed something as mechanical and robotic as typing, and hopefully we have some coffee beans around here . . . I think I'm gonna go take a nap.

Then, I'll upload some happy cartoons or something, just so that I don't go crazy with all the blackness and unhappiness that seems to be a regular for me.

Yes, the unevitable, I am unable to sleep. Which I suppose shouldn't be a huge surprise, I've been on a real sugar high like all day. Did I mention that I love coffee . . . cause I do, like alot. I can't help it, its an addiction. I PROMISE that I will upload somethin tomorrow, its just, things have been kinda stressed. Thats why I'm nursing my addiction to coffee, and just giving into it.

Damn you starbucks . . . when theres one in every single mall you go into and every single corner of every single street, you expect me NOT to get a frickin cup of coffee. I hate the world right about now . . . I might just draw a coffee cup.

Thats all . . . I'm gonna try to sleep, I'm exhausted mentally, just not physically . . . ugh.

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Okay first I have to apoligize for the spelling of that nasty little bug in the title, I have no clue whether I got it wrong or right, but I'm far to lazy to go back and change it or even check to see if its totally wrong . . . so it might be spelled wrong in this journal many times.

Anywhore, back to what I was going to say, I meet a science teacher today, dropping off a cousin at school, and had to go inside due to teacher meeting guardian day. I was facinated when I saw the large aquarium like container, holding many many numbers of hissing coackroaches. Imagine your regular sized coackroache, now times it by ten in size, and you get the little buggers. Google it if you don't know what I'm talking about, and I might just draw one, for something interesting and a guide to what I'm talking about.

Sadly, the day has been filled with puppy duty, school pick up, and insane writing for a new story, so sadly, I have nothing to post . . . but I promise you people I will have something tomorrow. And by the by, another shout our to an artist on here, mattkind, who was very humble in sending me a note about his work. He needs some encouragment people, so go to his page and award him a lama badge. :3

Anyways . . . I am exhausted, and the puppy I'm watching for a friend is napping as I type this on my labtop, so that means I might take a little puppy nap myself, he is so damn cute. Until next time.

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No not like the show . . . even though I have seen it because I was in the room when one of my nieces was watching it. Either way, I have accomplished the stupid feat that seemed to evade me every moment of the day. I have finally completed a picture that will be perfect for the childrens book. It was, "Don't forget your sweater." And that was not as shame casting as the others. I at least still have my dignity in tact, thank the gods.

I will be uploading it right after I post this. I am EXTREMLY happy that I have completed at least one of those ridiculous picture types. And the picture turned out fairly well if you ask me. Anyways . . . I have to report, I am such a hypocrite. I have been saying that alot of fangirls have gone completly crazy with the naruto yaoi . . . but I have to confess, I am now a supporter of SasukexNaruto. I AM ASHAMED! *Crawls in corner*

But I suppose, its just because of this site . . . . damn you Hei-Chan and your amazingly cute comic of those two . . . *nosebleed*

Anywhore, I start a new job tomorrow, so possibly no uploads, but who knows. Perhaps I will doodle at a time of laziness, until next time.

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Just got back from a sort of used book store. Its actually pretty amazing, its called books revisted. They had all sorts of books in there, for as little as fifty cents, and I consider that amazing. NINE BOOKS FOR FOUR DOLLARS! Thats insane, and there all in pretty good condition. You can also trade your own books for other books, pretty amazing. I'm excited about the store, you can bet that I will be visting there for . . . the future to come.

Anywhore, to the art part of the journal. Props to Aka-Shiros work, which is in my definition, true perfection in art. If anyone actually reads these things, go check him out. I unfortunantly, will probably not be able to upload anything today. I am putting all of my focus on the book, "The Help" Its amazing so far, i've gotten to around page one hundred, so not very far at all.

Read it, trust me, you wont regret it. Back to the art portion, I have recieved more picture types for the childrens book I was talking about a while back. I will TRY, and I do mean try, to draw some of the new suggestions. I can't stand having to do this . . . but I swear on every single penquin in the world, I will NOT let this beat me.

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